Today I feel like a round ball constructed of a person's excrement (as in, shit). I woke up this morning and it was like awakening to an aweful nightmare, with some quite unpleasant thoughts on my mind, concerning certain facts about my family. Facts like those that make you think that some people see you as a pile of useless rubish that never succeded in our country's most afflicted and dysfunctional system, the educational. I thought that I had moved beyond the occurance that my parents thought that I am but a sad little failure wasting the tainted oxygen that fills this ancient, foul, and depraved city (Athens). I came to realize that I am considered to be the Black Sheep, the cursed link of my family chain. I believe that to be one of the reasons why I am never heard when I talk to them, and when heard, never understood. In their eyes I failed, and thus, I don't deserve to be heeded.
Oh, well... such is the fate of those who let their mind wander a little further. "Ignorance, is the root and the stem of every evil", said Plato, and I can be said to have fallen victim to the ignorance of my family (of course, I don't try to take the blame off my shoulders, errors were commited on my part too). Ignorance of virtues like independance, freedom of thought and chivalry. Rejection is not an easy burden to bear no matter how prepared is one for it, after years it might wake you in the middle of the night with tears which you do not know whence they came. As I consume this bar of chocolate, hoping to bring me at least some chemical euphoria, I realize that it doesn't work, chemical substitutes cannot fool the spirit, one's body is easy to decieve, but if the spirit is in sorrow, mere matter cannot give it appeasement. Only music shall liberate me, and take me well beyond this colorless day.

"Come what come may,
time and the hour
run through the roughest day"